Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Stretching too Thin

It's hard not to think about the future. Whether its because my daughter is due to join this world within the next 8 weeks OR because I am at a desk job and I enjoy moving around. (When I'm not pregnant and a waddling puffy penguin)

I miss school, I want to start in the fall of 2018; leaning towards a Medical Assisting degree at the moment, since its at the community college nearby. And I don't foresee Nursing School with a toddler to be something I am willing to take on.

How do people manage to balance working full time, going to school, being a Mother to a new baby, and a wife? I'm already exhausted and it's only my husband and I.


Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Growing Humans is hard!

I am nearly 31 weeks pregnant now and I am definitely feeling it. Yes, I'm aware "it's only going to get worse." Which is an odd way to bond with one another.

"Yeah I know this sucks, it's going to suck more soon." -Woo, right on! Can't wait to feel worse later... Not.

I am also guilty of saying this to those I know who got pregnant after I did. I need to be more mindful of it... Just let people vent. This shit is hard! Growing humans is hard! Your body is changing every day for over 9 months, your hormones are all over the place, food tastes weird or better than it ever has... And Heaven forbid we glance down at the scale at DR's appointment...

"WTF?! I have never been this heavy in my life!"

We spend so much time telling others "It's going to get worse." But also that they are not allowed to complain, feel tired, be uncomfortable, or inform someone that they need to start wearing deodorant... That we are creating life and should feel blessed because of the woman who would do anything to be in our shoes right now or who lost a child unexpectedly. Believe me, I am not trying to invalidate your feelings... But you are trying to invalidate mine, and honestly... That's not fair either.

Friday, April 7, 2017

The Furrbaby

Thank you Draco.

This handsome furry feline has actually helped me into Motherhood four years ago without me realizing it. I've had him for 4 years and he still wakes me up multiple times through out the night to eat and/or get a drink. (Because water bowls are not a thing unless mommy and daddy aren't home to turn on the sink...thank God water is included in our rent.) Sometimes it's just for cuddles or because daddy accidently rolled onto him and he needs to escape to higher ground. Or because he isn't feeling good and comes to lay with me before puking all over my side of the bed, the second I get up to pee...

What I lovely thing to return to at 4 am this morning. And does the husband wake up? Nope.

Which honestly baffles me... Have you heard a cat puke before? It's not quiet... Or immediate. It's loud and the process takes a good minute and a half. Plus he did it twice.

Anyways... I love you Draco. Thank you for helping mommy out and at least I know I'll have someone up with me when Ryleigh gets up. lol.

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Thursday, April 6, 2017


Like many pregnant women these days I have an app on my phone. This app gives me an idea of what the baby looks like right now, where they should be development wise, keep track of symptoms, etc... They also have a spot called "Community" where you and other Mom's can connect, ask advice from, and vent to. Here is where my favorite phrase comes to play:

"Just because you can, doesn't mean you should."

And this goes for some of the ladies on the site. One in particular caught my attention yesterday.

Title: DRs are Dumb
How did I go from being 15 weeks pregnant
before to 28 weeks pregnant now?
I don't trust them!

Comments on this post included:

"That doesn't sound even possible."

"Are you sure?"

And things of that nature. My favorite is listed below, soon after this comment was posted, the entire post was taken down. You'll understand why in a bit.

The best comment in the world:

"I saw you posted in December that you were 15 weeks pregnant with twin girls... You do know that as the weeks and months go by your pregnancy progresses too right?"

And with that I leave you.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Name game

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The Doctors appointment went well. So far we have a healthy baby girl who is marching right on track in growth. They are still keeping an eye on her and me from now...well, until the end really. 10.5 (ish) weeks until we meet our Ryleigh... Middle name is to be determined by my husband, Lord have mercy on us all.
"No honey, I am not yelling "Ryleigh Goku!" When I need her attention or she's in trouble."
Yes, almost a regular conversation in our house now. This is what happens when you marry an anime nerd... I like anime, not to the extent he does and God forbid I pair it up with "cartoon." But one: We are not of any oriental decent and two: His ancestors were from Mexico & Germany, mine were from all over Europe.
Why is it so hard to name a human?!
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